mother effer

Worst fear confirmed. I am not interesting.  I might go as far as to say that I am boring.  I'm almost ok with that though, because I think everyone is actually very boring we just assign interest to those who are doing stupid things and dangerous things.  Which is stupid.


"Why are you sad?"
"hmm?"
"Because you put on the headband and it didn't work?"
"..."

You condescending asshole. thanks.

LIFE SUCKS. FUCK THE WORLD. FUCK EVERYTHING.  FUCK EVERYONE. FUCK SOCIETY. FUCK LOVE. FUCK RELATIONSHIPS. FUCK BEING NORMAL. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

And so it is....

When I get to the end of the road,
And all that is behind me is dirt, and rocks and man eating beasts,
don't worry.
Gasping through the darkening before my eyes,
Clutching my arms to my chest, elbows tucked for the free fall,
there I went.
Did you see me go?

Like a boulder, tumbling,
Never knowing its greatest strength.

Mother, get the needle, this job is too big for that bandaid.